why do i always have to cry on certain days ? am i that dramatic , say that i am cos ive never been happy for a long time. And once i am , things always go wrong. I want something to make me happy for a LONG time , something or someone to make me happy , keep me outta this depression, the lonliness.

The feeling of Lonliness. Here once again , no texts from my daily texters , no nothing. The feeling when everyone is done and moved on from you. Things dont last forever. People move on from your life just like that , They lose interest just enough to not care and act so careless about you . When you guys were the closest before.

YOU . things are changin , just changin . i dont even know what to feel anymore. I love how we had memories , trust me , you taught me so much. But now , i just dont know where to go in life . Just probably stick to the basics , square one. Figure out whos still in my life and find out the ones that are there just to teach me a lesson and move on.

it hurts getting distant with people , and the next thing you know , there gone . I dont want to just be a memory.

its so funny how fast someone can lose interest on you. The fact that you know you never reached up to their expectations. Here i am , alone once again. No one to lean on. Bestfriends are there , but you have the feeling that they’ve gone on their own ways. Wheres the good anymore ?

Tmrw ? will i feel the same. I just want to be happy , thats all . But i never reached to the point of being happy in a long time. What else is there to make me happy ? ive always been neutral with things.

the people i expect to make me happy , always let me down. Im always waiting for a change , but nothing , theres nothing that will ever happen.

me and you , will never be together. me and him , it was just a fun game of knowin each other , just to stop and move on. you , your gonna be going on your own way soon , the only thing im scared of is , that you might forget me. you , your the only one i have left , but were not even close .

i dont have anyone anymore .. /:

Thanks for giving me advice . I love how you cared enough to listen to what i have to say. You become a really good friend of mine , thanks .

Im done , were friends right ? welll actually i dont even want to even talk to you anymore , even how much i do . Its like i was too obsessed with you , but now im done . I just dont want to talk to you or see you anymore . Cryin wont help right ? i dont want to cry .. i just dont know who i am right now , and im still trying to figure out myself . And i’lll just go back to way i was .. the one when i didnt know you the first place . I gave up , your just like every other guy in the world .. i FUCKING give up.

i say that im DONE with it , when im really not . im such a two face for typing all this , when in reality all of this is totally opposite , that fact i keep typing that im DONE with you when im REALLY not . Im seriously going crazy over you , call me obsessed . but i like you , and its stupid to know that you dont even care at all . ive been moody over you , trying my best to get to know you , but whats the point ? you dont like me , and i keep forcing myself to impress you when i should just be myself , and find out the people who would fall for ME . NO not the person i was trying to be , i mean the person who i am all along . i shouldnt have to impress you , i shouldnt have to force myself to find ways to get to know you more , i want to say that im done , but it takes time to get over you , i might as well NOT see you for awhile , just so i can move on , your really not doing anything that shows you care at all , so i have to accept and move the fuck on , its the best thing to do . I get to attached to love that i end up gettin teared up on my hopes . Isnt it cruel ? how people you care about can bring it down just by the blink of an eye ? its stupid , im stupid for actually putting people in my life like that , gettin hurt like that . i shouldnt deserved this much pain , i shouldnt at all . i say FUCKLOVE , im better of alone , THATS MY STATUS . But why do i keep saying this when i know when i see you on a school day , im gonna go alll mind phased all over you , i just got out of ANOTHER let down , and im so pathetic going back to you after i just eliminated you . IM OVER YOU , IM OVER YOU. I wish i could say that straight up but then i wouldnt listen to my own words, its time to actaully accept things the way it is .. and imma try to do that NOW .

im done trying, im tired , i dont feel right anymore , i feel like crying but im keeping my head real high , im not gonna give up with life . so what i make mistakes , well im not perfect to you , and i wouldnt , dont tell me that i failed as a friend , because in reality , you failed as keeping our friendship , i was holding the other half , and you couldnt careless , more like you didnt even notice i was needing help trying to get back to where we started , but oh well your loss , im not going back .